Friday 10th has come and gone.

Friday 10th has come and gone: the day all my work was due in. But time has become such a weird thing, this half life, when not working formally and only well enough to study sporadically that I have no sense of time or what it is. Today for instance I sat and read the information on extensions, something I have tried to grapple with before, but today I acted on the information, so rather than studying for a couple of hours, I have sort of filled in forms, and sort of approached people, but I have no real sense as to whether the information I am providing is right or adequate to get me this extension beyond a time that has already come and gone, and because I cannot get the request for an extension to the office in the due time then maybe none of this time has been spent for anything.

I would love to spend more time editing. I finally did some on Friday and it was great, love it. the whole reason I was here studying, or almost and it is only on the last day, that I finally do some.

Let's hope I get an extension and can do some more.

useful start and frustrations.

I was well enough to get to see the Disability Advisor so that was the very useful start, but then only had energy to spend a short time on the editing

Psychologically I have not been up to the challenge of editing so again a good sign health wise that I had the courage to walk into the department where I always get the feeling that I am greeted by some of the staff there with a sense of despondency and ask for their help. Despite the huge list of students waiting for help I was ready for the challenge and sat waiting for the staff to finish with them and come and help me. 40 minutes later I had tried everything I could try: I realised no one was coming and my energy was gone. I wrote an email to the staff to say I was going, popped back to their office to see if they were still helping other students, only to see everyone was working i.e. they had forgotten me, so I left fuming and belittled. When you have no energy and no money you can do without such editing days. It took two hours to get home because of the snow, and this morning I felt very ill again. But hopefully I can get an extension because of my continuing health problems and I can really confront my fears and get on with the editing.